its been 7 years since i last came on here, 7 years.....
7 years.... im not sure i remeber how to write anymore, or even have the patience to, the words are there, they are always there, nut the are jumbled mess, all struggling to come out at once, and in that melee nothing seems to sound quite right.
in 7 years, i have...
left a marriage
married another man
had an 3 abortions
kicked out of second marriage
mobed homes 3 times
moved out of the country
gone back to school
lost two people i really loved
and so many many more than i can remeber right now...
i beleive this wasnt an accident..
i dont know where my spirituality was in 2018, but im still trying to take the walk of spirituality, and commune with my maker.
and so i dont believe finding this blog was an accident,
i do think that the exersixe of jouranling everyday will help me to refocus, and find my wirting steeeze.
i thought i lost you, one of the most precious gifts i was born with, the literary ability to tell stories, to see the wotld in color, to be creative.
it is an absolute relief to feel somewhat like my old self again, to find the things i have buried, to sirvive, to conform, to be who everyone else expects me to someone else... absolutely exhausting...
so lets do this for 30 days... and hope it sticks...
wish me luck xoxo
No comments:
Post a Comment